Wednesday, Sept 17, 2003 - 09:55 p.m.

'Aku' mode: on

Perasaanku campur aduk. So many terrible things happen today, but still I feel so blessed. Thank you, 4JJ 1, I still can be here, this minute, alive and in safe condition.

This evening I drove my imouto back fum school. I always do this everytime I have spare time or got home early fum campus. I don't know why I could be so careless. Mungkin karena ga' terlalu nge-gas s'blumnya, pas tanjakan (yg emang terjal banget), tiba2x mobilku berhenti & walo gimanapun (dipasang rem tangan lalu digas lagi) ga mau naik dan malah turun.

Honestly, I panic. Fortunately, there weren't any car behind, just motorcycle. But oh gosh. It's really horrible. Sebelah kiri itu juraang!!! >_< dan ahirnya aku banting setir ke kanan dan injak rem sedalem2xnya.

Thank God, it's almost slipped into ditch, but not. Around this time, many ppl came nearer and one of 'em, a very kind old man, save us. He instructs me to change drive-seat w/ him, while the others push from the bak & put a big rock to avoid car sliding down further.

THANKS GOD, really. >_< I feelin' grateful with their care and big help! I couldn't imagine what will happen if 4JJ 1 didn't send 'em at that critist moment. Thank You, Thank You 4JJ 1, Thank you, everybody!

Ah, after everythin' passed, that Mister who handle the wheel before gimme advice that I shouldn't be panic in that situation, and then askin' me whether I could continue the rest journey to home. I said it's ok n hontou ni thank you. I said that endlessly and he said it's ok n be careful. And so I drive my car back.

My imouto seem so stiff. I know it's my fault. I'm sorry sis. Really I promise I'll never be like that anymore. I'll be careful & avoid the risk. Not again take that road!

And so, until this time being I still grateful to 4JJ 1 for blessing us.

Actually, apart fum this incident, today I got two unhappiness things, too. My usagi, "Kuma-chan" was passed away. And my best friend (who live over island) got pocket-picked.
I really love my usagi. He always starring at me cutely n never resist everytime I need his comfort, mangku ato ngebelainya. Maniis sekali.

Kuma-chan, I'll really miss you. Hope you happy there. Forgive me, ne, Kuma..."

And about my best friend, I try to console her along this afternoon and give her advice. Hope she will better tomorrow...

That's about my terrible things today. Gratefully, I got many things happen that smooth my feelin' back, too. Dita-neechan, thank you for your caring sms. Jya, I think I will end my typing here. Thank you sooo much for everybody who read it until here.. T______T

Mode: Dunno...
Uta: Setsunai Koi ni Kizuite (KinKi Kids)

Tuesday, Sept 16, 2003 - 07:59 p.m.

Hwah, I'm happy today. Really. Many things happen and sooo goood. I luv my friendz! I know we can do it together! Go to hell ppl saying we can't n yet so lookin' down to us. I know we can do it! We'll prove it to 'em, riite!!

*laugh*

Oh, well...they will never see this blog though. Why did I yelling this matter here? OK. That's about my college problem. Forget it, LOL.

Today, I also readin' message in IJ, and Freya said that she will borrowed me "Ningen" if I want! Ureeeshiiiii yo. I think I have fall in love too much to KK, so that I dun care about anything. *laugh*

Demo, really. When I said I wanna hugz someone, I really pour my feelin'. I thought Fre is very nice, just like other ppl in IJ. I felt blessed join dat ML. It's not only about jyannis. I dunno how to say these...but I felt warm everytime I readin' the messages or exchanging email. Just like when Citta-senpai have a hard times and everyone support her much. I really fond that kind of thing, makes me wanna cry.

Oh yeah, I try to do polling Dianne-neechan sent me a while ago (yet, it has been a long time, LOL!). OK, these are my answers:

1. What book has made an impression on you?
"Toto - Gadis Kecil di Balik Jendela" and books authored by Helvy Tiana Rosa given by my dad. And that's why I treasured 'em much! ^^

2. Which superhero do you most identify with?
Super hero? I dunno about 'em. *laugh*

3. Do you have a most precious photograph?
yup! Of cooz! ^.^ It's my pic when I was small w/ all of my dear family members.

4. Were you in the popular crowd at high school?
Um, i'm flexible. LOL. But, I choose to be with my small group of nice friend, though. Having ppl who understanding makes us felt so beloved, ne?
That's why everytime I said this about 'em: "May be I dun have a tens, hundred, or thousand friends, I do felt blessed with friendz I have."
(well I think I blurred out the question, LOL)

5. Who do you secretly admire but are ashamed to have to admit?
My best friend ^____^

6. How do you enjoy a quiet Sunday?
Hum, sleep! Kidding! Just like everyone do...
nothing special, really.

7. What is the first thing you see when you open your eyes in the morning?
Sometimes alarm clock, sometimes...my pillow?

8. Any regrets?
Hum, can't said "no", right? But regret does makes us strunggle more.

9. Tell me how you would make a salad?
Hum? Salad?? Why would makes salad when we can eat 'lalapan'?! LOL!
--> run aways fum the fact that I couldn't cook ^^;;

10. What three web sites do you check daily?
My faculty forum, my lover's site aka Tsuyo :P *ruuuns*, and yahoo.

11. What would you cook to impress a date?
9_9; somethin' I can cook? Well, somethin' he like. I'll try to learn to cook it! ;P

12. If you could do it all again, what would you change?
My times when I dun being my self and couldn't tell what I want.

13. Star Wars or Empire Strikes Back?
"or"! *lol*

14. Where would you like to have a holiday?
JAPAN! ^^ And Venesia.

15. What have you recently discovered about yourself?
I'm an extreme!! Could change my mood everyday and half!

16. How will you celebrate the fact that Mars will be the closest to the earth for 60, 000 years on August 27?
Go off to the roof and stay there for 15 minutes, lookin' at the sky and makes bet with my ototou-chan whether "it's Mars or the lamp"!! LMAO~

17. Who first stole your heart?
I never too sure whether it's only crush or love...but it's someone fum my 2nd class of high school.

18. What is your favourite cheese?
Kraft.

19. You can go back in time to any period; where do you go and what do you do?
To times when my family got hurt and I can't do nothin' about it. I want to be there and do everythin' to makes 'em happy! Everythin'!!

20. What television show makes you really mad?
Un-quality entertainment And Fake News! -__-;;

21. What was your favourite subject in high school and why?
Biology! Physic, Chemist, and Math! Language too, and ancient history.^^ Yo, all lah, except Pancasila. :P

22. You are sending a care package for a distant associate in crisis, what do you include?
Food, medicine, and pray! That's it!

23. Have you noticed Dr. Phil's (no, not my Dr Phil, the other Dr Phil)
*neglecting my head innocently n smile*
Dr. Phil? *blink blink* Oh, org yang g ga tau itu ya?

24. White, dark or milk chocolate?
All!! XDD

25. If you could be anything or anyone for a day, who would you be and what would you do?
Tsuyoshi! Everythin' he does! ^__^ I just wanna know mooore about him!

26. Cats or dogs?
Cats! ^.^ The nice and cute puring kitty cat.

27. What was the first film you can remember seeing at the movies?
Beauty and The Beast!

28. What would you do if you were invisible?
Makes my self visible! LOL!! I wanna do things I couldn't do with my visible mode.

29. What three important items do you have on your desk?
Recently laptop, pencil, and USB.

30. You win a kilo of anything you want. What do you choose?
Hum, anythin' those kids on street want. I'll ask 'em now! Matte yo...*running*

31. What will you do for your next birthday party?
Wishing goodness ^__^ and kiss my mom! Making my tomo-chan promise what I want 'em to do! Askin' my dad, what he like me to promise to him.
And then waiting for phone from my friendz, hehe.

32. Do you have a favourite ever moment?
Muuuuch of 'em and I still accumulating 'em! ^_____^

33. What 6 items are in your handbag?
wallet, handphone, note-book, umbrella, tissue, pencil.

34. Multi-tasking, can you? Do you?
Mostly not. But I can do it if situation push me to do.

35. Describe your dream house!
Simple and clean house, with beautiful British garden and some antique interior.

36. What's the craziest thing you've done?
Much. Walkin alone through forest in night and without lamp, or goin' to Jakarta without know exactly the place I want to go, etc, etc, and last choosin' my faculty where study right now! LOL.

37. What do you secretly indulge in?
^_________^

Mode: Mixed-feelin'
Uta: Love is Message (W-inds)

Sunday, Sept 14, 2003 - 11:15 p.m.

Hwaaa, back fum hiatuzz!! XDD
May be some ppl askin' me where did I gone lately?
In fact I got so many study-projects and a bunch of organization-files to do. U see...just like one by one come endlessly. And when all of 'em have same deadline, I'm who first dead, hehe.

I amazed mahself. Usually I'm so lazy to do my task. I'll prefer to enjoy my day in front of computer, internetting and searching news about jhonny's, than diggin' in Java or C++ programming which makes my head aches.

OK. So I decided to let it flow ^_^
Mumpung mood gw lagi smoooth bgt, hehe. *hyug my mood suddenly*
Ternyata pelajaran itu bisa sangat lovely yaaa!! Makes me study-alcoholic for a sudden, LOL. Now I know what Koichi feel with his workalcoholic :P

*laugh* OK, now better I stop talkin' about it.

Let's talk about others thing!

Fiiiiiirst, I have watch "Ao No Honou"!!! XDD
Aw, Nino's acting here is really greeaaaat!!! He takes my feelin'. I love his expression most when its near the end. That's it, when he's in the police-office. Don't you look, his mixed feelin' is drawing so weeell when that good old policeman sayin' about 'wanna know more about him'? Ah, I really like that one! The best! If only he could meet that old man before everything happen..I thought it would lead to a better ending.

Now what I argued is "why he must kill himself like daaat?!!" T____T *crying madly*

Oh, well...drama. I must confess that at first I still complain on his acting, but as the plot goes on, it did workin' on me. He really a type who will become more and more serious as the plot goes on, ne. Really I clap my both hand for him!!
Great job, Nino! ^_^

Second, 'bout F1. Schummy won!! Yaaaii!!! It's Ferrari again! That's it! Two happiness in one day! *laugh* I'm so glad that he won. And with good start too! *haappyy*

Third, I have saw Tsuyoshi-Fine Boys'pic on net. >V< He's sooooooooooooo cuuuuteeee!!! Kenapa siiiiiich doi makiiin kawaaiii aj dari hari ke hari!! XPP Ko g ngerasa kayak Tsuyos makin muda aj ya? *LOL* Makin kayak anak kecil! :P

Oh yeah, hearin' dat Friday's mag. writing smt. like "Cho Sexy?!" to decribe his picture. *LMAO* Is it true?

OK, so fourth! I have succeed poisoning my cousin with Arashi. And you know what? She said she loves MatsuJun the best! *lol* May be next time I'll make her love Nino too. But seem hard, though, hahaha ^^;;

Fifth, this is specially to dianne-neechan. If you see this, I'm sorry for long no replying to your tag. And 'bout our talkin' in sms before, i'll email you after this. And about the vcds, I'm waiting it!! Of course! ^V^ *laugh* But dun worry, you dun have to rush it, neechan!

OK. I think that's it for today. Oh yeah, almost forgot! Ditaaa! I waiting for your coming! I'll search the best time we could meet, okay! ^o^ I'll drive you around Bogor! ;)

Mode: Back fum hiatus ^.^ for a while..*lol*
Uta: Darling (V6)